Detached

I feel so detached

    Detached from you

    Detached from this new life

    Detached from reality

    Detached because of fear

         Fear is so incapacitating

         Its icy fingers grip my heart

                    My mind

An uncompromising grip

I wish I felt differently

I wish this fear didn’t taint my thoughts

      Hinder my grieving for you

      My bonding with your sister

I’m so sorry, babies

                            But, I love you through this fear

                                                   I just hope that you feel it